Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Unaltered.

I got to know you only for a short period of time,
but all the memories I have about you are enough to make me fell deep in love.

The you that I know is the you that I admire.
I like how you dress fabulously well in your suits,
how you write your masterpieces on the blog,
how you made pieces of art on your canvas.

You are perfect, can never be replaced.
Nothing seconds those ridiculously romantic moments we shared:
a little talk over a busy cutting machine,
a walk under the stormy rain,
a nice encounter before we parted ways.

Yet the you that I know is just the you that I want to know.
I honestly don't want to know further about who you really are,
or how you've been,
or whether you still remember me.

I just want to make sure that
you and the memories of you
remain unchanged,
for I realize that some people are meant to be known
just to a certain point,
for us to forever be in love.

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Dari Hati yang Terdalam

Terima kasih,
orang-orang yang telah mengingatkan,
bahwa jalan ini masih panjang,
bahwa aku tidak boleh menyerah,
tidak boleh malas,
dan harus tetap berjalan.

Terima kasih,
Tuhan,
karena telah menyadarkan.

Terima kasih!

Drops

Aku pun teringat akan malam-malam itu,
langkah-langkah cepat,
tanah yang basah,
tetes-tetes air hujan,
dan cahaya rembulan,
di gelapnya malam.

Aku pun teringat akan malam-malam itu,
ketika aku memandang,
menerka-nerka,
adakah kamu di sana?

Ketika satu-satunya petunjukku
adalah nyala lampu kamarmu.

Ketika satu-satunya penenangku
adalah aku
yang terdiam sejenak
dan dalam diam berkata,

"Ya, kamu ada."

Oh hujan.
Lagi-lagi kamu turun
dengan potongan cerita
tentang Ia.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Sometimes.

Terkadang,
aku ingin
menjadi orang
yang
pandai menulis
tentang cinta
dan harapan.

Welcoming November! Welcoming Thesis!

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Hello! November is already here, haha. It somehow feels a little bit intimidating. Why? Because my mid-term exams have just finished and probably it's about time for me to try to work on my thesis. I haven't even read a single article on finance lately, but I suppose the reading needs to be undertaken very soon. I'll try to get it done this week, promise!

Anyway, recently I've been so much into this Korean variety show called Running Man. I know, this show is very popular around one or two years ago and I insisted not to watch a single episode back then. But you know, sometimes life gets a little bit boring (what?) or I just need some sort of entertainment to make myself laugh out loud (haha), that's why I started watching Running Man around this year's July. And as you know, it's addictive. Some episodes aren't that funny, but you'll never know when the funny scenes will come out that it makes you very curious to watch every single episode. Sometimes, the show also gives you some sort of flashbacks on previous episodes that makes you really want to know which episode it was from and forces you to collect (and watch) as many episodes as you can. In addition, I currently have no classes on Mondays and Tuesday, what better way is there to brighten your lazy days but to watch your favorite TV show?

However, I do feel a bit bored recently because of my super-loose schedules. I haven't been going out that much for a while, and I feel like all I do at home is just sleeping, eating, and watching anything. I even feel like I underused my brain and I'm afraid my brain is going to lose it's capability, that's why I downloaded several brain training applications on my phone. Haha. Another problem that rises is the fact that I actually know what I've got to prioritize: my thesis; yet I, as always, procrastinate. I should get myself together and do this thesis thingy, for real. (But why on earth are you on Blogger rather than Elsevier right now?!)

Sorry, I think I gotta go, it'd be awesome to try reading some English idioms (it just crosses my mind). Afterwards, if I'm not super-sleepy or get distracted by something-that-I-dont-know-yet, I'll check out some articles on Journal of Finance or something like that.

See ya!

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Self Reminder, Self Reflection

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

So I've been thinking about many things and somehow I learned,

that we are created weak,
but He wants to lift the burdens of the weak;

that we are full of worries and anxieties,
but He wants us to cling our hope only to Him;

that sometimes we go astray,
but He wants us to pray to make Him lead us to the straight way;

that we question so many things, we're lost,
but He teaches us the Holy Book of guidance;

that whenever we try to reach Him,
He will reach to us even further.

I've always been thinking that I am a sinner, that the afterlife for me would be awful. 
I get scared so many times thinking about what would happen to me after this worldly life has ended.
I get anxious, worried, all the time.

I forgot that You are The Most Forgiving, that to go back to You is never too late, that I can still beg for Your mercy, that I can still find the peace and beauty in this faith I believe in.
I forgot to appreciate and be grateful of the life that you've been giving, to help others and become a beneficial person for others, to focus on making my parents happy, to do my best in everything I do.
I forgot that all activities I'm doing in this world are actually part of the good deeds, if I am doing it with the righteous intentions.

I worry too much and forget that there are so many things that needs to be done to throw my worries away, to make sure that my life has been done in a way that it's supposed to.

Allah, please forgive us, please put peace inside our heart, and please guide us to the straight path.
Aamiin.

Semangat Tari, insyaAllah ada jalan. Tetaplah bersyukur dan manfaatkan waktu di dunia ini untuk hal yang berguna! Dengan menyebut nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang, insyaAllah kamu bisa :)

*penenang untuk diri sendiri*
*Allah terima kasih ya aku sudah diberikan kesempatan untuk memperbaiki diri dan memngingat-Mu di tengah segala kesibukan ini, alhamdulillah*

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Officially 22 :')

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Alhamdulillah. On the 4th of September this year, I turned 22. I thank Allah for the opportunity to live for 22 years already, and I am truly sorry to Him that I haven't yet become a good servant. I thank my family for being the best family ever. Although there were no birthday surprises nor party nor cake, but I think the fact that they remembered my birthday and the love they've given to me all this time are more than enough. And of course, I thank my friends who showed so much love on the day of my birthday (including birthday cakes, surprises, pictures, greetings, etc). They all just made my day and made me uber-happy! I sincerely want to say thank you and I am so grateful to have friends like you :)

Alhamdulillah! Thank you :)
Anyway, now that I got pretty old, I realized that I need to start arranging my own life. I need to live my life in the best possible fashion. That's why now I'm trying to write down several resolutions that might be useful to tackle my bad habits, with a hope that at least one of them would last until next year and on. Here we go:
  1. Be more tuma'ninah in prayers.
  2. Read the Al-Qur'an everyday, even if it's just several ayah.
  3. Sleep early, wake up early.
  4. Be more grateful, try not to complain much.
  5. Immediately do what my mom/dad tells me to do.
  6. Do not use the F and S words.
  7. Eat more vegetables and fruits, at least once a day.
  8. Try to read the classes' materials before the class begins, at least the introduction part of the chapter.
  9. Do exercise everyday.
  10. Read at least one news article each day.
  11. Be more sensitive towards other people, try to do the best to help and/or make others happy.
Bismillah. Please do send me your prayers as well hehe :P
Ganbarimasu!

Wassalamualaikum wr wb.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

The Internship!

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Aloha! Been a while, eh? Tomorrow is the last day of the official holiday from the uni. Quite uncommonly, I feel kind of excited! Probably because I need regular activities to prevent myself from waking up late and getting dizzy for half a day because of too much sleep or too much reality/variety shows. Anyway, this holiday I did some interesting activities mainly related to work, which were pretty much unexpected. Signing up for an internship was the last thing I had on mind a few weeks before the holiday, yet I ended up doing my first internship this holiday, which is the topic I am bringing up in this post.

SCG International Intenship 2014

The SCG Bangsue Office's Signage!
Being an intern is probably the last thing I wanted to do before the holiday, as I said before. It's pretty much because I don't want to waste my holiday time and I thought that I would have around half of my life to build my career, so why start now? Hahaha. However, this particular internship program caught my attention. Not only did it offer a precious working experience (that you might need for your CV, lol), it also gave a chance to stay in Bangkok for a month, and most importantly, for free! That's why I ended up applying for it, and got accepted.

The program itself was very enthralling since it was my first exposure to work. SCG itself is (shockingly) a very big company in Thailand. It was the second-biggest company in the whole Thailand if I'm not mistaken, and they are one of the oldest companies in the country. We -- the interns -- didn't know it before since SCG hasn't gained much popularity in Indonesia although they are currently owning major shares of quite many companies in this country's cement and chemical industries.

To be precise, I worked as an intern under the supervision of a marketing analyst called P Fon, in the Sales and Marketing Department of Thai Container's Group of SCG Paper. My department is pretty fun. I worked with awesome graduates from prestigious universities in Thailand. They are people with creative mind, people who know what they're doing. They are very capable as marketers and it's shown in their creative works and amazing personalities. I really like to work there as the atmosphere was pretty relaxed and laid-back while the jobs were done very well.

TCG's Sales and Marketing Department!
We as interns are also having many trips to several places in Bangkok and all of those agendas were prepared by the Overseas HR Department of SCG. These people were the ones that arranged almost everything from our room's WiFi to the room for our Farewell Party. We were lost without them, and I am so thankful to have them in the program. We also have the Vietnamese interns during this program who works and have trips with us! We are basically attending so many things together and they basically just doubled the fun!

Indonesian Interns with P Fon, Kaow, Kakda, and Champie from the HR Department at SCG Experience!
Indonesian and Vietnamese interns at the Grand Palace :D
The international interns got interviewed by SCG's reporter at the SCG Stadium after watching Thai's MU (Muangtong United)'s match. Yes, we were on TV (at least office's TV lol).
Aside of office works, I really enjoyed my time in Bangkok because of these high achievers: the Indonesian Interns. These people are the people that I spent most of my time with, since we used to have endless gossip nights and entertaining trips to many places in Bangkok. Anyway, I learned a lot from them, they're such an inspirational bunch of people, and they are very fun to be with, even with all their blatant verbal expressions. They joke around all the time that sometimes I kind of feel bad with other people (re: Vietnamese Interns and SCG's HR people) that we might be overly noisy hahaha. But yeah, a month with them was one unforgettable experience that I would love do all over again.

At some random park with fountain and birds, after our visit to Grand Palace.
At HIP Hotel Bangkok, our home. It was Dianty and Anbar's room!
Done with the official internship-related things! The next thing would be about my Thai friends. So, I got a chance to meet my friends from Tohoku University while I was in Bangkok. I met Kia (yes, my bestie!) and went out with her two times. I went with her to Huahin (a beach in the southern part of Bangkok) and Chocolate Ville (a fancy restaurant at Bangkok's outskirt). I went with her, her mom, her sister, and her boyfriend (Gus), and with Gus' mother as well. They are very generous and I couldn't thank them enough for their kindness. I also had a chance to meet the international-relationship-master Clear who spared her time to see me before taking off for her Euro-trip (and of course, that includes visiting her boyfriend --my homie-- Joe in Sweden). I wanted to have a FaceTime call with Joakim when I saw her but turned out that he was still at work.

At a restaurant with amazingly beautiful view in Huahin. Very recommended (don't know the name though lol).
From left to right: Pink (Kia's sister), Kia's mom, me, Kia, Gus
I and Clear at a Japanese restaurant somewhere in Siam Center.
Last but not least, I finally had a chance to meet Cartoon! She was my online-friend that I knew when I was still fangirling over Japanese idols in the Let's Jump Together online forum (around 2008/2009). Oh my, it was so nostalgic. I knew her when I was in the second grade of high school and we have been Facebook friends ever since. Last year, Riedha went to Bangkok and saw her in person and this year it was my turn haha. She was amazingly beautiful, elegant, and kind-hearted. So lady-like! And I love how she has a very brilliant mind and unique way-of-thinking. We had so much fun together!

6 years of knowing each other! Can't believe I finally met this long-lost sister.
That was about the internship! My first time ever in a real office, haha. Very fun, a great way to spend a holiday. For those who are interested, you can probably apply next year and I believe you won't be disappointed. Anyway, I hope I can visit Thailand again sometimes in the future and meet my acquaintances again :)

Just want to add this picture as it's nice hahaha. It was somewhere in Asiatique.
Okay then, good night and see you! I guess I'd be writing one or two more post(s) about Thailand sometimes soon :)

Wassalamualaikum wr wb.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

On Being a King

Will you still be considered King when you actually have nothing to rule over?
What is so important about having an authority?

You can always order people to do things according to your will,
at first they might obey,
but if those would only drive people away,
would there be anyone left to be called a subject?

Friday, July 25, 2014

Ramadhan, Aku Masih Cinta :3

Assalamualaikum wr wb.

Sebenarnya malam ini saya mau bercerita tentang cinta, tapi apa daya sepertinya ada suatu zat atau hal yang apa-saya-tidak-tahu yang menahan saya dari melakukannya. Rasanya tidak enak, rasanya lebih baik menulis tentang Ramadhan saja. 

Ya, tahun ini, alhamdulillah berjumpa lagi dengan Ramadhan. Bulan penuh berkah. Bulan yang saya sangat rindukan, terutama karena suasananya. 

Malam ini malam ke-27 dari bulan Ramadhan. Malam Jum'at pula. Katanya di malam seperti ini baik sekali untuk beribadah banyak. Saya percaya, tapi sayangnya saya sedang dalam kondisi di mana saya tidak punya banyak pilihan ibadah. Sedih rasanya, sungguh.

Kalau boleh jujur --dan mungkin terlihat dari tulisan saya--, saya cukup kecewa dengan diri saya sendiri di bulan Ramadhan kali ini. Separuh dari bulan ini saya habiskan di Thailand, dan sejujurnya tidak banyak amalan yang saya lakukan di sana. Kecewa rasanya, karena seperti menyia-nyiakan kesempatan mendapatkan ampunan. Kecewa, karena saya ingin merasakan kedekatan dengan Tuhan di bulan ini.

Tapi mau bagaimana lagi, apa yang sudah terjadi sudah berlalu, tidak bisa diubah. 
Fokus selanjutnya adalah beribadah lebih banyak di hari-hari yang tersisa.

Ya Tuhan, maafkan.

Tapi jangan menyerah, masih ada beberapa hari tersisa! :) *memasukkan emoticon untuk menambah semangat dan memperbaiki mood*

Bismillah.

Wassalamualaikum wr wb.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Who Are You?

It was around 10 pm.

I was there. On my way home.
Making my way through 
the gate of the MRT.

And there you were,
walking past the security gate, 
heading to the same direction as me.

We were both there,
in the same space and time;
eyes met.

Butterflies.
I wondered,
why?

It was one of my last days in Bangkok.

And I thought,

should I stayed a bit longer,
should I braved myself to try,
things between us
might end up different.

Yet,

I might never even get
to know your name.
Nor would I ever know
where
you were heading.

You are only a person.
The one I saw at the MRT station.

I barely even remember your face.

But still,
I'm wondering,
will our paths ever cross again?

Friday, June 20, 2014

Bangkok Internship!

Hi,

Sorry for the long-time-no-posting! :)

I'm currently staying in Bangkok for a month to do my internship. It's awesome, I didn't know that Bangkok have developed so much compared to Jakarta. Some things are quite awesome here, yet some areas are pretty much the same with the things I'd find back home. Things are going pretty well, it's just that the schedule is very tight I sometimes barely have time to relax! But the people are awesome, met many new friends and can't wait to meet old friends in the weekend :)

Would love to post many things on the blog but I'll try to adapt with the pace first ;)

Wish me luck, na! *Thai accent coming!*

Sawadeekha!

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Keep Going!

You have to believe that 
after hardship, comes ease.
God knows what you've done,
He knows how hard you've tried.
The next step would only to believe,
that He'll set up the right time for you
to reap the seeds that you've sown.

Anyway, all of a sudden I just really want to share to you some words which have stayed on my mind and heart for quite a long time. It was my mom's. When I was in Elementary school, I got pretty envious of these friends of mine whose families are rich, yet they're doing pretty well at school. You know, there was an ongoing assumption that rich kids are typically not smart, and at that time I felt like the world is so unfair that there actually are kids who could actually get both things on their hands.

I never had any courage to tell those to my mom, but somehow she could understand my feeling when a few things accidentally slipped out my mouth while I was ranting on my assignments, and she said: "It is just normal that rich people are smart. They have enough resources to be smart and successful. They have money for private lessons, they have all the facilities they need to pursue their dreams, they don't need to take the public transportation to go to school, et cetera. But you know, if you could be as successful as they are with all of your limited resources, then it is what I call exceptional."

Since then, I believe that all of the limitations I have are actually some sort of tools to prove other people that I am capable of doing more. They won't hold me back.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Growing Up Is Tough

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Growing up is tough.
It is, don't you think?

Just recently I realized how tough it actually is to be an adult. Back in the days when I was younger, everything seemed to be very clear. I knew exactly what I needed to do next after certain phases of life, I knew what kind of accomplishments I needed to make, and I had enough courage to depict myself in the future. It felt like every single thing had already been set, the path for me is straight, and all I needed to do is trying to never get myself off the road. The target is lucid and seemed to be rather explicit.

But now, everything gets a little blurry. I feel like I'm getting lost, getting off the road. Or more precisely, I might not even know which way I am currently heading, nor which trail I actually need to take. I now able to feel how ambiguous and unclear this life really is. Success and many other things that I interpreted when I was younger seems to be rather ambiguous. I have no idea about the exact definition of it, let alone how to get there.

I've got principles and values that I hold dear, of course. But as I use more of my brain which demands reasons behind everything, I start questioning things, as well as beginning to rethink the targets I set for myself when I was so naive. Oh my, why do adult tend to overthink things? Haha. It also seems like I'm producing more negative thoughts than positive ones nowadays. And I feel like I really miss my overly-optimistic side. To me, the world now seems to have unlimited possibilities, with the nice and terrible ones distributed almost equally. That makes it very hard for me to make decisions. Well yeah, maybe that's why people say that growing up is not about age, but about the choices you've made.

However, I can't get stuck here. I need to try untangle all these messy thoughts, somehow. Well, the first step I need to take is probably to get a hold of myself, by holding on to the rope of Allah. I might be lost now because I haven't been that close to Him these days. Secondly, I might need some time to think about things I need to accomplish in life, and it probably would turn out better if I'm not too ambitious in setting those. I have to learn to be grateful and accept the fact that no one has a perfect life. Everyone has problems, and life would never work as if it complies with all your hopes and expectations; but at least trying has never been a bad option. Lastly, I need to regain my optimism. How? I think I need some time to refresh my mind, to do things I like, to eat tasty foods I've always been drooling at, or anything, to make sure that my stress level is reduced to nearly zero (you wish!). Haha.

As for the closing statement, I really had a great time watching The Amazing Spiderman 2. The best part was Gwen's speech, when she said: "What makes life valuable is that it doesn't last forever, what makes it precious is that it ends. And time is luck, so don't waste it living someone else's life, make yours count for something. Fight for what matters to you, no matter what. Because even if you fall short, what better way is there to live?". It was such an inspiration, and the thing we need to figure out next would be to define things that actually matter for us.

Good luck to you, and good luck to me.

Everything will get better, eventually :)

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Friday, March 21, 2014

Sawo, Ketumbar, Daun Bawang?



Sabtu, 16 November 2013. Seperti biasa, saya yang selalu terburu-buru dan grasak-grusuk sebelum meninggalkan rumah untuk berkegiatan, hari itu tidak sempat untuk sarapan sampai kenyang. Perjalanan sekitar satu jam dengan kereta api tentu saja menghabiskan energi yang hanya saya dapatkan dari setangkup roti. Apalagi, kereta api tujuan Bogor hari itu cukup penuh. Maklum, akhir pekan. Kota Bogor masih merupakan kawasan yang diminati penduduk kota yang sedang bosan.

Di akhir pekan itu, saya bukan berangkat ke Kota Bogor untuk liburan. Saya berangkat menuju Desa Susukan, sebuah desa yang terletak di Kabupaten Bogor. Hari itu saya dan beberapa teman ditugaskan untuk mengajar siswi-siswi SMP di PKBM Nurul Jannah, sebuah sekolah informal yang didirikan untuk mendukung anak-anak kurang mampu agar dapat mengenyam bangku pendidikan.

Sesampainya di Desa Susukan, perut saya yang sudah keroncongan akhirnya diam setelah diisi sepiring nasi, dengan lauk mi goring rasa rendang. Rasa kesukaan. Karena lapar, sepiring nasi habis dengan cepat sekali, dan tidak terasa waktu untuk mengajar sudah menghampiri. Waktu itu hampir pukul satu siang, kami pun melaksanakan sembahyang sebelum masuk ke dalam kelas masing-masing.

Setelah sembahyang, kami berangkat ke lokasi pengajaran, yakni PKBM Nurul Jannah. Penampilan sekolah ini memang cukup unik, bangunan sekolah hanya terdiri dari beberapa kelas, mungkin hanya empat atau lima. Kelas-kelas tersebut pun hanya dibatasi oleh kisi-kisi. Alhasil, suara dari satu ruangan dapat dengan jelas terdengar dari ruangan lainnya. Hal ini menjadi tantangan tersendiri, terutama bagi saya, dalam hal mengasah konsentrasi. Selain itu, di dalam kelas, siswa belajar dengan duduk di atas karpet dan menulis di meja kayu kecil yang tingginya mungkin hanya sekitar delapan puluh senti.

Ketika masuk ke dalam kelas, saya disambut oleh empat orang siswi SMP yang sudah duduk rapi di atas karpet tempat mereka biasa belajar. Saya pun memperkenalkan diri dan berkenalan dengan mereka. Impresi pertama yang saya dapatkan adalah: mereka masih muda sekali. Umur mereka masih sekitar dua belas tahun dan mereka baru duduk di kelas VII, tetapi semangat belajar mereka cukup tinggi. Saya yakin tidak mudah untuk melangkahkan kaki ke tempat belajar pada siang hari di akhir pekan. Bahkan, saat saya masih seumur mereka, akhir pekan saya selalu dihabiskan dengan menonton film kartun kesukaan. Jadi saya yakin empat orang itu adalah anak-anak yang hebat dan penuh semangat.

Sekitar satu-dua menit setelah perkenalan, seorang anak lain masuk ke dalam ruangan. Ternyata anak itu juga salah satu siswa PKBM, meski saat ini ia bersekolah di kelas VIII. Usianya sekitar satu tahun lebih tua dibandingkan anak-anak lainnya. Awalnya saya tidak menyangka, karena saya kira saya akan mengajar anak-anak yang jenjang pendidikannya setara. Tetapi, akhirnya perbedaan ini menjadi tantangan bagi saya untuk mencari tahu bagaimana memberikan materi pelajaran yang sesuai dengan kebutuhan dan dapat dicerna oleh keduanya.

Pelajaran bahasa inggris hari itu dimulai dengan pengenalan berbagai jenis teks dalam bahasa Inggris. Rencana awal saya adalah mengajar tentang grammar, tetapi nampaknya hal itu belum dibutuhkan. Saya semakin yakin bahwa grammar bukan menjadi kebutuhan setelah saya melihat lembar-lembar ujian yang dipinjamkan siswi-siswi tersebut kepada saya. Ketika melihat soal-soal tersebut, terlihat bahwa pelajaran bahasa Inggris yang mereka pelajari masih benar-benar dasar, lebih banyak berputar di lingkup kosakata atau istilah-istilah sehari-hari yang dapat ditemukan di lingkungan harian, seperti rumah, sekolah, atau pasar. Akhirnya, saya memutuskan untuk mengajarkan istilah-istilah penting dalam kehidupan sehari-hari saja sebagai pembekalan dasar untuk mereka.

Kami mempelajari kosakata penting terkait rumah, keluarga, serta lingkungan pasar. Ternyata pengetahuan mereka tentang istilah-istilah dalam bahasa Inggris sudah cukup baik, meski belum optimal. Kata-kata yang bersifat sangat umum seperti “mother”, “father”, atau “bedroom” sudah cukup familiar untuk mereka; namun, kata-kata yang sedikit lebih kompleks seperti “nephew” ataupun “dining room” nampaknya masih sering mereka lupakan.

Kami juga mempelajari cara pengucapan kata-kata dalam bahasa Inggris dengan baik, dan lagi-lagi anak-anak PKBM Nurul Jannah membuat saya kagum. Kali ini karena keberanian mereka untuk mencoba. Meski pengucapan mereka awalnya belum sepenuhnya benar, mereka tidak takut untuk mencoba mengucapkan kata-kata berbahasa Inggris dengan baik di depan kawan-kawan mereka. Tidak takut. Tanpa malu-malu.
Bukan hanya itu, hal lainnya yang bagi saya sangat menarik dari proses belajar-mengajar hari itu adalah terkait diversitas pola pikir anak-anak tersebut, yang menurut saya cukup berbeda dengan anak-anak kota. Sebagai contoh, ketika saya meminta mereka untuk menyebutkan nama sayuran ataupun buah untuk nantinya ditranslasikan ke dalam bahasa Inggris, mereka mengajukan nama sayuran dan buah yang bahasa Inggrisnya tidak pernah terlintas di pikiran saya seperti “daun bawang”, “ketumbar”, hingga “sawo”. Benar-benar di luar dugaan.

Kata-kata itu mungkin memang menggambarkan kehidupan sehari-hari mereka yang belum banyak tepengaruh oleh ingar-bingar kota maupun nyamannya pasar swalayan. Pemikiran yang mungkin sangat berbeda dengan pemikiran anak kota. Menarik sekali. Saat itu saya harus bolak-balik melihat kamus untuk mencari tahu padanan kata-kata tersebut dalam bahasa Inggris. Saya senang, karena hari itu bukan hanya mereka yang belajar, saya pun banyak belajar karena mereka.

Di penghujung hari, sungguh terasa bahwa ber-akhir-pekan di desa Susukan memberi banyak pelajaran. Meski waktu bersantai di akhir pekan berkurang, namun pengalaman hidup dan kekayaan cara pandang justru bertambah. Terima kasih PKBM Nurul Jannah Susukan, sampai jumpa di pertemuan yang akan datang!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

The Stars I Couldn't Fathom into Constellations

Familiar with the title? Of course, you'd read a similar text from this book called "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green. He wrote: My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations. So here are some thoughts of me coming from a couple months ago, which somehow I can't fathom into decent blog post.

The answer to my anxieties and the lingering question about the purpose of life is that I am trying to find peace inside myself. And there is no better place to find peace but in Islam.

The more I understand myself, the more people would accept me. Faking isn't always necessary, because people would prefer to welcome a person with identity.

Leisure time is really a double-edged sword, at least for me. Using it for activities with much benefits would be much better, really.

One kind of problem which occurs to me as very irritating would be disrespect. I have no respect for people acting disrespectfully. 

Reading the Qur'an and study about Islam bring me back to my purposes and principles, also to the realization of how small and powerless I really am.

Ambition is necessary, but for me, having too much of it would erode the soul. Sometimes it catalyzes too much anxieties I couldn't handle.

It's so saddening to see how ethics and morality aren't valued much by people in my country.

Friday, February 28, 2014

Go Away!

I really want this laziness to go away. I am such a lazy girl and I realize that this is such a big problem to have. I don't wanna spend most of my time sleeping or doing some other unimportant things! No. Not anymore. Life is so short and the time we have is limited. If we're not optimizing the resources we have, then what is the use of us as a person in this world? In our society? I am so ashamed of myself. But then, we still have time to change. To improve ourselves. To be more productive each day. To be more tired everyday. To relax sometimes as well (haha), but not too much. 

I think one of the most important solution is to be able to use spare-time for something productive. There might be massive effect coming from us using our spare time correctly, wisely. I need to learn to do that, really, because one of my biggest aspirations is to be someone beneficial for others, and be able to leave a great legacy to be appreciated.

So, get yourself together, Asriana Syarifa Septari!

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Rainfall

The
rain
falls
to the ground

And the water splashes
As those children hurries
Answering their calls
To be coming home before
the night
falls

The
rain
falls
to the ground

And the tears
come
down
my cheeks

Creeping down slowly
Concealing its right
to be heard
and
to be seen

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Don't.

It gets harder and harder, each and every inches
of us striding alongside the cold wind.
The air is getting thinner, the slope seems so much steeper.
Could we ever make it?

They somehow look better,
don't they?
Those people we met, better equipped,
seemingly leaving us far behind.

Yet,

for there will be rewards after every sweat we're breaking,
for there will be sweet victory after us believing,
don't give up.

Just, don't give up.

We might be there already,
only a few centimeters before the very tip
of the dream,
we've been dreaming.