Thursday, December 10, 2015

Of Many Things To Be Grateful For

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.


Been forever since the last time this blog is updated! (That has been pretty much my "favorite" opening sentence in the last several posts). It really just made it even more clear that I haven't allotted that much time to write on the blog. Sigh.

Anyway, there have been many 'first-time's I had done in the past few months and more or less because of that, life has been very exciting!  But anyway, I won't be having that much time to write this post so please bear with me if I don't have a well-written structure in this post (saying this as if the other posts are good lol). So, let's start :)

First Time Working!
I have started working, yay! I'm working in this financial e-commerce startup company called, a company under a group called Compare88 based in Singapore. What I do is helping my Group CEO lives his life easier by providing him with analysis and assistance. I have been working for almost three months (I'm still in probation period, btw lol) and hopefully I can learn a lot and stay for some time in the company. 

To be honest, working in a startup company has its own ups and downs. I really love how I can be exposed to so many interesting things (and of course, people!), how I build this enormous vision on how digital technology company can achieve so much in the future, and how I can learn tons of things from the ever-changing environment and leading people in the industry. However, it's pretty tough as well. I think some of the challenges are that I have to be able to work independently as well as in group, the need to be flexible in working with several projects at a time, and how to always take the initiatives. I still have so many things to improve, and I really hope that I can have an exponential learning curve for that. Wish me luck :)

First Time Solo-Travelling!
So, during my interview with my boss in the current place I'm working at, I told him that I had bought tickets for holidays in Australia. He didn't mind; so my post-graduating vacation plan came to reality. I flew to Australia when I had worked for the company for around a month and it was my very first solo-trip. 

I went to Canberra all by myself, flying with AirAsia (of course, the cheapest!) to Kuala Lumpur and then to Sydney. From Sydney, I took a coach and went to Canberra to meet with my auntie, uncle, and cousins to stay with them for around two weeks. We went to explore Sydney during one of the weekends, and I went alone to Melbourne only for a short 3-days trip. I'll do a separate post for this as there are so many things I would like to write about! :)

First Time on A Business Trip!
So, I just got back yesterday from Manila, The Philippines, to do a business trip! It was an amazing experience since I had never expected to have an overseas business trip this early. I'm super grateful and told my mom that this might be because she prayed for me to be able to travel around the world when she and my dad was in Mecca doing the Islamic pilgrimage :)

But anyway, the experience was pretty amazing since I learned a lot from the office in Manila, and although we had to work when it was actually public holiday in Indonesia, I had quite a lot of fun since I went there with colleagues who actually are also my peer group during college! Haha. Also, we managed to experience flying with Singapore Airlines! :P

So, yeah, as I thought you before in a post probably more than a year ago, the first-times are always exciting and I look forward to new things in the future!

See you and have a wonderful day :)

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

So Long, Melbourne.

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

As I am writing this, I am sitting in a coach heading to Canberra. I stayed in Melbourne alone for 2 days, and it was such an unforgettable experience. The short trip was totally amazing and I've got so many things to share, but I'll do that later when I'm home and able to construct a well-written post.

Anyway, can't believe I'm coming back to Indonesia in a few days. This travel, especially Melbourne, made me miss living abroad so much and now I realize how happy I was to be able to live in a foreign city as locals and how exciting it was to get to know strangers.

So yeah, you know, it kind of makes me feel like applying for a Master's degree scholarship. Haha. Thanks for the inspiration, Melb! (But you've just worked for less than a month!)

Sooo, see you again, Melbourne :)

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Monday, October 5, 2015


Among the strangers
with whom your eyes met,
there sometimes are
those whom
you can't help but
to take a second glance at.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

Musical Obsession

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

I am a big fan of musicals, and to watch The Lion King musical on Broadway is one of my biggest dreams. When I lived in Japan, I almost watched the show in Tokyo but I changed my mind, mostly because the show would be in Japanese and I didn't think I would like it as much as if it was in English. A few months ago, Beauty and The Beast performed in Jakarta, but I didn't watch it since I didn't have enough saving for that. And lastly, The Sound of Music will have a show in Jakarta from October 6th to 18th, but I haven't had my salary yet so I don't think I will be able to watch it either. So, you can say that I'm an avid YouTube musical fan, haha.

Anyway, my most recent musical crush was Wicked, and Aladdin being the second to last. But yesterday, as I was lurking on YouTube (just like any other Saturday nights) I found this very promising new musical on Broadway called "Finding Neverland". You might recall a movie with the same title which starred Johnny Depp and Kate Winslet back in 2004. This musical was based on that very Oscar-winning movie. The story is basically about how PeterPan was made; with J. M. Barrie (PeterPan's author) as the main character. The cast for J. M. Barrie in the original Broadway musical is played by Matthew Morrison, and yes he is Will Schuester from Glee. Here's a song that brought me to tears the first time I watched it which made me really hope that I can watch this musical one day:

When did life become so complicated?
Years of too much thought and time I wasted
And in each line upon my face
Is proof I fought and lived another day 
When did life become this place of madness?
Drifting on an empty sea of waves of sadness
I make believe I'm in control
And dream it wasn't all my fault 
When your feet don't touch the ground
And your world's turned upside down
Here it's safe, in this place
Above the clouds 
When your feet don't touch the earth
You can't feel the things that hurt
And you're free, there's no need
To come down

The song was so beautiful! And you can find out more magical pixie-dusted stuffs in the official site here. My personal opinion on this musical is that probably it would be my next favorite after Lion King, since I love the thought of how we always have to believe that dreams will come true and how we never really have to grow up.

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Life, Updated

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Hi! Been such a long while since the last time I got myself totally immersed in writing. Let me tell you about what I have been up to these days.

Recently Graduated
Graduation ceremony was held on August 28th, 2015. I went there with my uncle and auntie since my parents could not come. The graduation ceremony was inspiring, which was not quite as I expected. I was moved when the song "Selamat Datang Pahlawan Muda" was sung. It might have meant to be a song sung for the freshmen as the graduation ceremony was also the welcoming ceremony for them; but for me, it was also as if it was sung for us, the graduates, and we were addressed as heroes which made me feel kind of sad. I felt like I have not done anything much to deserve being addressed as a hero. I could have done much better for the nation, really, but regret always comes later.

The next tear-jerking moment was when one of the freshmen, who got accepted in my faculty (Faculty of Economics and Business - FEB) went to the main stage to sing a song for us. And it turned out that he was formerly (and maybe is still) a street-singer (underprivileged people who sing for money on the streets). It was very sentimental for me, since the street-singer got accepted in my faculty (partly) because he was enrolled in this social program initiated by FEB UI's students called Sekolah Master, which essentially is an informal school for young street-singers who could not afford going to school, to prepare for the annual test to get into national universities. It was amazing, since right before my eyes I could see how a kindness like that could lead to a change in someone's life.

Job Seeking
Since I have officially graduated, it also means that I am officially unemployed. I am still looking for companies who might be interested in my personality, interests, skills, and potentials, and I hope to find it soon. I am recently aiming for several companies but I have not yet received positive feedback from any. At times like this, I remember reading an article that says how our generation is a less-happy generation compared to our parents', because we overvalue ourselves, we think that we are special, and we think that companies also think that way. But in reality, we might not be as special, really, and we might as well end up having a job which does not live up to our expectations. Thus, becoming less-happy. Sorry if it sounds so pessimistic, but it really creates doubt in myself sometimes, and I think it is not so nice for my self-esteem. However, I believe that knowing it would make me a lot more prepared in accepting jobs that might not be as great as I expected, and still do my best with that. Wish me luck! (Anyway, I can't help but feeling insecure as I am writing this, since I am wondering about whether my online presence would do me a favor or backfire. I hope it's not the latter, since I am here to show companies that I am real person, and this blog might show them a little something about my personality).

Household Chores
Did I tell you? The reason why my parents could not attend my graduation ceremony was because they are doing Hajj or the Islamic pilgrimage, which means they are currently in Saudi Arabia and will be there up until the beginning of October. Therefore, I am left with my older brother and three younger siblings at home. Since I do not have any maid at home but the one who only does the ironing, I am currently responsible of most of the household chores. Be it sweeping, mopping, or dish-washing, I now can do them pretty well. Surprise surprise. Ah, I still don't cook that much though, because we ask some help to a relative to cook us dishes every weekdays. But well, you can expect to see me in the kitchen on the upcoming weekends, haha.

Well, that's pretty much the updates on my life, haha. Anyway, I have an idea that I might share with you, but I'll keep it for myself 'till it's ready. Thank you for reading, see you!

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Ramadhan Mubarak!

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Ramadhan Mubarak! 

Of all the greetings for any Islamic occasions, I love mubarak the most. It means happy as well as blessed. Both are particularly related to my feelings recently. I finally passed the thesis defense two days ago, feeling exuberant with this huge blessing from Allah. Yay. And I am so thankful that I had finished it before Ramadhan came so that I could concentrate on preparing myself for the good deeds :)

Alhamdulillah Sarjana Ekonomi (almost official)! :)

Today is the first day of The Holy Month and I feel happy about how I started. I literally have almost no burden from university or anything else so I can really concentrate on doing things I wanted to do. I did yoga earlier this morning to keep myself fit and I am planning to do so every single day. I tried my best not to sleep during the day but I did, haha. Probably means that I need to get more sleep during the night, which means going to bed early. It makes me happy only to think that I can really try to start over with my life as this holy month begins.

Bismillah, and as always, the most important thing is consistency. 
Let's try our best, we're just getting started.

Have a blessed month of Ramadhan, everyone :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

On Sleepless Nights

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Been going through countless sleepless nights and too-much-sleep kind of days. Will be having TOEFL test this morning for the thesis defense requirement. Will be doing much part of the Fourth Chapter of the holy thesis and hopefully will be able to send the draft to my adviser before work hour ends today. Pretty tight schedule, better be prepared and sleep instead of writing on the blog but I just feel like I need to somehow dribble out all of these pressure and anxieties somewhere, somehow.

Anyway, writing thesis is sometimes exciting (or more like intriguing ) and sometimes pretty devastating. The more you read, the more you know, and for me, most of the time results in over-thinking as well as growing excitement of knowing new, interesting matters. However, there currently is significant stress-level increase as the deadline draws nearer (also means getting closer to the defense date). And it's sickening that there's so much uncertainties coming from the probable double-standard in the defense resulting from possible combinations of lecturers.

It's D-24 before the deadline to submit the thesis, by the way.
So. Much. Pressure. Lol.

But in a much more positive tone, I luckily got a very admirable professor as an adviser. He is said to be very competent in financial research (and I believe so). I had quite a nice time every time I and my friends under his supervision meet him for discussion. It's so fulfilling to get to know a great person that I got highly motivated every time I met him for a discussion. Hope my research is good enough for him to help me out in my defense.

So, yeah. Bye for now.

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Parents-Children Relationship

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

I had never fancy the thought of having children. I would love to get married, live with, and probably take care of a spouse, but having to take care of children had never occurred to be something delightful for me. But several days ago, a friend of mine hit me with this question: "Where would you see yourself in the next five years?", and I never thought that she would tell me that by that time, I probably will have my own baby. 

Well, that question is actually not something that you won't stumble upon on several occasions, since that is one of the most common questions in interviews, especially job interviews. I had practiced myself on how to answer that question but I had always been thinking about how to answer them in a job-related manner, about whether I would pursue my study or try to climb the career ladder. But that time, we were talking about how our friends are getting engaged, married, or even build a family, so I guess the thought of having children in five years time was relevant.

I began to think that it might be pretty annoying, considering that five years is not that long (now that I've realized that time flies exceptionally fast), and also considering the fact that I don't really like children that much, except for my own little brother and this cute Korean girl called Yebin on YouTube. I can actually choose not to have children in five years, but my friend said that it'd be better to have at least one considering the mother's health (I am currently too lazy to browse whether this statement is true) as well as the pressure from the environment, especially parents/in-laws (haha).

A few days days ago, I still couldn't grasp any sense of happiness that life might offer by having children, but I somehow happened to accidentally watched this Korean variety show called "The Return of Superman" as I was surfing on the cable TV channels. The show's concept was pretty interesting, in which fathers are left with their children for 48 hours and get filmed. It's actually pretty popular (most of the people in the office where I was doing my intern recently regularly watch the show, but I never had any interest to join back then) and it kind of succeed in changing my perspective toward having children.

I watched this episode where all the four families in the show got together celebrating the show's first anniversary. In this episode, the parents were shown the footage of some of their children's biggest moments, such as when they had their first word, their first step, their first walk. I could see joy and happiness in their parents' eyes, and I couldn't help but to think about how the look on my parents' face were when they first saw me and my siblings walk, talk, and did many "first" things. I suddenly felt glad that we once could bring them so much happiness back then.

I kind of feel that the children actually gave their parents a new kind of excitement in life of seeing them grow up. It seems like the parents reached a surprisingly interesting new stage of life, that they never saw coming. One of the parents said that although he went through so many hardships in raising the children, seeing them able to do things for themselves is actually a greater joy that would make everything else paid off. It came to my utter amazement how parents' love for their children could be so immense, and that parents can be so happy and grateful to have children.

This show made me realize that wanting to have children and enjoying it is maybe just another phase of life that hopefully will come to me someday, and it might not be as terrifying and as annoying as I thought it would be. Maybe it's the same as how I thought I would never wear any make-ups when I was in junior high, and how I thought I would never want to even think about having any boyfriend when I was in high school. I just hadn't wanted it yet.

Now that I think about it, having children might even be one of the best experience in life. So, I am sending my friends who have already had (or expecting) children lots of love and good-lucks, I hope they can make you happy! And as a kind reminder for myself, let's make our parents as happy as they were when they had us when we were little.

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

PS: I had a fight with my mom a few days ago and these thoughts really helped me in making up with her. It just feel terrible to know how the daughter that she had taken care of with lots of love in the past grew up to be a person who often hurt her. I'm sorry mom and dad for all the mistakes I made :(

Sunday, February 1, 2015

On Life Updates

Assalamualaikum wr. wb.

Intern Life
So, I'm currently working at a local consulting firm as an intern. I started around three weeks ago and I will have my internship finished in the beginning of March. Having the the "normal weeks" for working people: working in weekdays; taking the train and buses during rush hours; relaxing and taking countless hours of sleep during the weekend; etc, is now my new routine. Ah, except for the fact that I am working overtime almost every working-day.

Anyway, lessons learned from the internship:
  1. Looking at those tired faces of people who board the train/bus at night, I can somehow understand that almost every one of them strive for a living. Despite the problems they face at work, they can't just run away since there's this huge responsibility placed upon their shoulders. 
  2. There might as well be time for me to be one of those people (in point 1), and for the sake of my sanity I will have to be able to find sources of happiness over all those seemingly boring world of adults. I guess, I need to try enjoying every tiny bits of enjoyable things I find. That's why I lip-sync and make faces when I'm in the bus, do some small dancing moves in the hallway when no one's watching, and leave my desk to get fresh air every now and then. It's so fun, btw, haha.
  3. In work, you might meet people whose personality you might super-loathe yet you can not opt to get away from. You might as well unable to ignore them since it'd be extremely uncomfortable. Haha. But that's when I personally learn how to "handle" different types of people and how I should never be like them.
University Life
I still have my thesis proposal in the process of being reviewed by the lecturer, in case you are wondering. And that particular thing is constantly increasing my insecurity and nervousness as the number of my friends whose proposals have already been reviewed (thus, enable them to know whether they can continue on with the topic and get their own adviser) seems to increase exponentially (lol). Maybe it's delayed because God reminds me not to be haughty over anything, since I remember how I told my friends who were doing their thesis something like how they could be so stressed over a matter that seems to be doable in a few months. But then, again, I believe that God has the best timing for everything and all I need to do is trying my best and see how God wants it to work. Maybe I need to pray more and get myself closer to Him so that I can get over this anxiety. 

Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Sense of Admiration.

I admire my older brother. 

While I am always busy with myself and being too self-centered that I often hurt my family; my brother is the complete opposite. He is the person who has always been calm, trying his best to never be a burden to mom and dad, never shows his feelings, let alone his wants and needs, and actually has always been the one who supports the family in so many ways.

I admire him for being the one who seems so happy to treat us for dinner, while he himself often buys ordinary meals for himself. I admire him because I learned that those superheroes who often gets overlooked do exist. He never tries to be the star on the stage, but without him there might be no star at all since he's the one who takes care of the whole show.

Thank you, for letting me realize that you don't need to be extremely smart and ambitious and all that for you to actually be happy and be other people's source of happiness. :)

P.S:Although I know that his childhood had been pretty rough on him and made him quite temperamental, I can see that he's a grown up now. He is much more cautious and I can see him being much more relaxed now. He's not at all as scary as he was when we were young, haha. Good luck for everything and I will always try to support you and wish that all the good things will always come your way! :D