To those of you who might notice, I have already been on blogger.com for about 8 years. I started writing on this blog since the second year of high school, and it has been going on until now. Having been continuously doing something for a long time is actually quite an accomplishment for itself, since I get bored really easily, and I work on so many little side projects which can be huge distractions for me to actually do something persistently. But then, here I am, been writing on my blog for 8 years, so I suppose I can do a pat-myself-on-the-back kind of thing for that.
But you know, sometimes doing something consistently is not enough. What is it that I have achieved over the last 8 years of writing? I am not someone with any meaningful content in my blog. This blog has always been a self-healing kind of place for me to write things that I have been worried about, things that I can never actually share verbally to anyone, or things related with love or compassion, and really just little thoughts on various matters. But it has never had any connection or certain theme in between them except that there is one writer to all those: me.
So, a few months ago, I started doing a little project: writing another blog which actually has a theme to it, travel. I have always enjoyed travelling (as most people do, really), and I want to be able to remember things I have done in my travel, by writing them. Along my life, I have also had to a point where I realized that I have a certain passion with photography (and cinematography), and those so-called passion can also be channeled with the help of my travel blog.
So, here I am, starting everything over ever since last March, writing several starter posts with very low number of views; even lower than most of my posts in this blog (lol). And I am hoping that you would care to take a brief stroll to it, and tell me what you think. Here's a picture with the link:
Spoiler: it is in Indonesian so... sorry to anyone interested who does not speak the language. Well, I do have the intention to write the posts about places in Indonesia in English language though, and I will let you know if I have any of those posted.
And yeah, as usual, wish me the best of luck and I hope you have a wonderful Sunday!
At some point of your life, you might realise that it is already time to not go with the flow, and to start creating your own stream instead. You might need to assure yourself that you need to change, in a good way, and improve yourself in many many things, and you'll realise that all those hard work, hunger, and thirst of self-development will actually lead you to happiness. Go follow your dream again, never stop the efforts, and even if you fail, at least you failed trying. Let's do this both for the worldly life and the life hereafter. Keep moving, keep chasing your target, keep praying, and keep believing that you, too, are capable of the great things you might have always been dreaming of.
For me, one of the most convenient way to learn more about Islam is by watching lectures such as the one I posted above (it was on the revelation of Surah Kautsar and was very heart-warming). Lectures on tafsir Quran, especially, have been very helpful for me to gain more insights on the meanings of the Quran, since most of the time I understand very little about the context of each ayah when reading the translations only. So, instead of watching more videos from YouTube celebrities during this special month, it might be better to dedicate more time watching videos like these! (note to self!). Bismillah, the holy month is coming to its end, and may Allah grant us ability to make the best use of the last 10 nights of Ramadhan, aamiin.
Anyway, you might want to check Bayyinah Institute videos on YouTube or go directly to www.bayyinah.org for more lectures by Ust. Nouman Ali Khan on various matters :)
There you go. A sudden, unplanned post that came to mind only about 30 seconds before actually writing the title for this post. You know, more and more people, I mean, my friends, are getting married soon! Haha. Even better, several of them are starting to have babies! It weirdly feels weird, and kind of exciting, but I really can feel this "hype" of people in my age slowly turning into adults. My dear senior-high friend, college friends, even those friends I met in Japan! This. feels. freaking weird. Haha. But I mean, most of us are 24 this year anyway so I guess it's just about time, eh?
So, buckle up, probably adulthood will come faster than you think! Cheers!
Of all things which I have learned during around six-months working, probably the biggest, and most important lesson is about learning how not to care too much on other people's judgements and expectations.
As someone who, ever since I was still a kid, has always been perceived by the society as someone "smart" or "reliable", I notice that as facile as those judgements can boost one's self-confidence, they can also create massive self-esteem breakdown if not achieved as frequently as expected.
This problem roots back to when I was a kid, a teenager, and pretty much all the time when I was at school. I am so used to compliments, I have always ranked well from elementary to high school, got many incredible opportunities, won competitons, even graduated with astounding GPA. The amount of those compliments are overwhelming and it was very enjoyable that I unconciously made my own self esteem out of those. Those compliments and other people's positive judgements were the bricks and mortars for my self-esteem's house.
But then, I had to get out of my comfort zone and face the unexpected downturn in my self-confidence. At work, I sometimes feel useless, and dumb, if I see other people performed much better than I did. I feel depressed when my boss doesn't pick me as the one who does the most challenging job at work. I am pissed whenever my friends at work are talking about an issue which I have no clue about. I am very anxious when I realize that I am no longer the best performer and no longer the smartest one in the group. And as expected, it affects my job. I am no longer excited nor do I feel like I want to continue working. But then, I start to realize that those things can happen all the time and in any situation, and that there is something wrong with the way I value and motivate myself. That's when I found out that the bricks and mortars have never been there, my "house" was only made of collapsing straws.
A TED speaker whose talk I watched last night mentioned, "most of the time, people do not listen with the intention to understand, but with the intention to reply.". My wild guess says that it is one of the examples of how we sometimes value our image so much more than our actual selves. We think that we don't need to understand; we only have to reply so that everyone else can see how "smart" we are. But truth is, we can never lie to ourselves. Those knowledge that we obtain only to entertain our ego would evaporate very quickly you won't even realize they were, at one time, happen to be in our brains. And one day, sooner or later, we will realize that it's not how we are supposed to learn, or work. Instead, we should realize that we do everything for ourselves, and that's what matters most.
Well, that being said, I do have to rebuild my own motivation and self-esteem right from the start, again. And I am trying to do it now. Because we should have never been motivated because of other people's judgements; we don't need to impress anyone anyway. We should have done everything for the sake of our own development and of our own enjoyment.
I, myself, will also keep struggling and will keep you posted.
Happy new year! Wilkommen to the the first post of 2016 :)
Hello from the other side! Hi!
So just a couple minutes ago I was scrolling down my Path and Instagram accounts and found numerous good news from my online friends, haha. Let me give you the list of the things that I saw:
A senior who has just got married and posted her wedding video, which I find very romantic and inspirational (really, the feels was just like watching Habibie & Ainun's movie trailer)!
A recent acquaintance who went to Google HQ (yes, the one in California) since his startup is (I guess) invited to join this seemingly ultra-cool training and sharing session by Google.
My exchange friend who's studying in Tokyo University posting a video of him and his colleagues playing with snow.
A senior who posted an article about "Signs that you love your job" and stated that she definitely enjoys her career. She's a banker, btw.
And suddenly, the urge to write this. I'm happy to see how people are happy and excited with their life. That's some sort of an energy for me as well and makes me realize, for the n-th time in life, that you can be happy as long as you choose to. I mean, look at those people, they are all taking different kinds of paths: marrying someone, creating a business, studying, and working. The typical options you have to somewhat prioritize in some particular orders after graduating. And guess what? They're all happy (at least, currently, according to those posts, haha) with what they've chosen.
So you (talking to myself, mainly), whichever path you choose for yourself for now, make sure to make the most out of it and be grateful! Everyone else is doing the exact same thing with you and they enjoy it. You can try to do it too ;)