Assalamualaikum wr. wb.
At some point of your life, you might realise that it is already time to not go with the flow, and to start creating your own stream instead. You might need to assure yourself that you need to change, in a good way, and improve yourself in many many things, and you'll realise that all those hard work, hunger, and thirst of self-development will actually lead you to happiness. Go follow your dream again, never stop the efforts, and even if you fail, at least you failed trying. Let's do this both for the worldly life and the life hereafter. Keep moving, keep chasing your target, keep praying, and keep believing that you, too, are capable of the great things you might have always been dreaming of.
Wassalamualaikum wr. wb.